I dread the passing of every second, Minute, hour, day and week. As
it drags me one step closer, to loosing you. Spiritually isolated again.
I am scared that the hole you leave Will not be filled by God. For
God is Love. Even if it were filled with faith, what a price to pay. I
should be left gravely out of pocket!
For I need tangible faith. I pray you to teach me the way Lest all
my faith be broken with parting.
To be forever close to you I would bare the weight of my cross For
a thousand life times, For you are my light.
Love deeper than life.
Faith by faith, being plucked from
me Like feathers from my wing.
An earthly angel, left wingless. How shall I ever fly to heaven for my
eternal rest. Lest the grace of God carries me.
Unless you hold me in your mind, your heart, your life, your Love. And
in your arms you take me there.
Faith slipping through my fingers like Ribbon tied with Love, slipping
Where are you God ? My God! God that turns Love impossible Into
life long friendship, never broken.
Why God, Do you strip me of my friends, my loves ? And leave me
always so broken and alone Struggling with death and
distance Circumstance and silence.
I refuse to believe, you are so selfish a God To cut the ribbon that
binds us, To deprive me of my loved ones Just so that you can keep us
If I were God I would hold, where holding's needed. I would let
Love, where Love intended. And where loving was forbidden, I would
overcome And forever let the Love of friendship flower.
And if I were God I would hold all that gentle loving, in the cusp of
my hands And blow my kiss of faith upon.
Like a dandelion fairy seed head, Spreading new life, from the wonder
of a Childs breath Blowing with the magic of love.
Faithful, innocent and God blessed. Nurtured and never broken By
the holy spirit in the breeze.
But you are God, not I. And faith is slipping through my fingers.
26th July 09
The Holy Spirit Moves in Mysterious Ways
Spirit breaking the bounds of Love. Not love cut out in hearts
and brought by society. Measured and contained and recorded, then
annulled. My love for you has no such earthly bounds. Why has God
waited till now, to show me the intensity of Love? Sweet Jesus kind.
Unless there be a day, when you seal your love in an earthly
ring Or anoint me with your blessed truth, so angels sing. I will
forever feel the wrath of my folly Having over ridden Gods
will. Unless Gods will does come again.
Your being is inscribed in my soul eternal, not upon a
page. The promise of forever sealed in my heart. Our spirits already
intertwined And flickering between this world and the next.
My love for you is enlaced with the sanctity of your
mind. T'is not the same with others of your kind, For their spirits
and mine aren’t connected, as ours. By the invisible funicular that draws
me in, beyond the eyes.
Where I am secretly led to that inner holy well. To drink and
be drunk, loved and replenished. Embraced and ensconced. Holy Holy
communion. Where true Love is not a sin committed.
All my days I shall meet you by that inner holy well. And long
for the sacred moment that you Ask me for my foreverness. When
everything that belongs to me And everything that belongs to
you Body, mind, being and spirit, As our Love Become one.
God Blessed On earth as it is in heaven Amen x
Do you feel it too? I need to know Lest madness drives
thy peace away. Hope. I am holding onto with both hands. For all my
humble faith, I place in you. Bestow me with just one. I Love You. To
keep me, until we can be. Lest our time be eternity x
Life and The Eternal
Enshroud me with your more than Love
Magisterium of my senses.
Encapsulate my un resided spirit
Slip your mind inside my mind
Braille of my soul
But pray you be of earthly nature
Celestial body compelling.
Soul to soul
Skin to skin.
Spirit me eternal.
31st May 09
May clarity of vision, long days enlighten.
May the stars carousel engrave the night time.
May every dawn be a pink encore.
May Love encompass and hold you Maura.
For only blest eyes who watch the horizon
May eclipse the full beauty of God's creation.
My heart I place within your hands It beats outside of myself, to the
rhythm of your name.
My sleep is laced with filigree paths Each and every golden one
leading me to you.
A maze of latticed love.
Breath by breath I dance, leap, wait, sleep.
Your presence alone quietens my seeking spirit.
Your solitary peaceful peace imbued upon my peaceful
I want and need and pray for
The bad silence is like waiting idle for repose No response, no
repose My too honest words leave me naked, exposed A failing of my
nature, my Love. I pray that you smile, that your great silence is
now only half so silent. But I as ever, silence my wretched
companion Like Death, forever at my side
If only you could name me Break the damned spell Replenish my
silence Silence that sustains me Carries me from hell
But the good silence humbles me It wraps me around, bound in its Godly
cloak And should I have fallen It lightens my yoke. Blesses my
tired body Loves me, regardless of my scars.
To feel Him is to be thrust into a great silence with ones
self Where I fear I am not so compassionate. But when His silence
comes It binds me and lights the end of days Where time is nigh so
lonely God knows.
If Love is far greater than death Then Love must be far greater than
If I were to close my eyes Or be within a darkened place. Or if I
were forever blind I still would recognise your face.
For I feel your soul, through every pore. And taste your spirit
When you are close, your lips don’t move But still, I see your gentle
smile Like a kiss, that blesses new born skin.
When you are close, Your hands move not, But still I feel your loving
touch Enough to place upon a ring.
A promise of a vow to you With every breath the words “I do”
And when you’re near my breath does stop And you begin to breath for
One day this will forever be. The sacred day when lovers wed A
marriage of eternity.
Until the day when we are betroved As lover I will be with
you Sensual and besieged with Love And faithful till my prayers come
Love chooses not
but is chosen by yearning and dancing and twining of spirits
Driven by God
I love, because Love is my gift
God chose me to Love you
What am I to do ?
For there is but one lifetime for loving.
The colour purple; a reminder of all my failings and weaknesses For I
know only to well, that I am human With every breath and every thought
and every stirring, I please me. I fail you.
The colour green; for I am ordinarily every day A celebration of all
that is growing . Of all that is natural For I am of nature. I
am organic and only sadly so long here. Don’t let me die before you
forgive the sins That you have created in me. Experienced with
me. Will Share with me.
The colour red; For I am in mourning. Suspended my
selfishness. Surrender my needs, Subdue my love. Suppress its
touch. That you may love me.
I deny myself, That you may Live like a king and die like a
Gold ; for special special occasions That our love can be of the
essence that dreams taste of After the suns have melted. Untouchably
glorious, together bathed naked in glitter Sacred eternally
bound. Deepest wishes that come truest true Please hear my
prayer, “Make a sinner of me, and then forgive me So that I can
be Physically and emotionally Loved by you”